Were you trying to say you dun trust me already ? if you are, you've succeed.

Well , ain't much in a good mood today. :/

today was running really fast. nothing much really happened. Well , today was kinda sad day for me. :( dun wish to talk about it.

"As the night came , each and every happiness ran away magically like in fairytales."

Well , i know u trust 178 people more than us , your best friends . but there isn't a need to spell it out for me. knowing it is bad enough , lying to myself each and everytime tht we'll still be your number 1 as always has always been my perfect plan. but you had to ruin my plan by telling me the ugly facts.we'll this is really depressing.we knew you longer but you trust them more. well i fianally understand "it isn't who knows who longer, but who understands who better." so this can be really depressing. i've always been telling my friends this but now i need to tell myself this. so i didn't understand you btr. i fail as your sister/friend/classmate. what tht is more depressing is tht you said we changed. but i dun agree with tht fact of yours. its not tht we change , its you tht have changed. well , even if you said she changed in to a more gl person , and i couldn't see it in my shoes but if i looked at his point of view i would see her "gl-ness" thn why izzit tht you wan me to see the bad side of her when we're all friends ? she have not changed. its wht you people think she changed when you just knew her. though you knew her longer than me but they changed you. they brainwashed you , they make you think tht she's gl. well , SHENOT. you said i'm sticking to her more often now and thn. but i felt tht i'm more apart from her already. i cnt talk to her in class. i could talk to you. i went to recess always with you , and not with her anymore. i go c.o with you. more seldom with her already. i couldn't even talk to her now in c.o already.i go 178 with you most of the time too. the only time i could spend the most time with her is during mt classes , going home after 178-ing and special cases like the mco concert. how can you god dam say tht i'm sticking with her more. most of my time is spend on you. i even spend more time on you , than sleeping , or with my family , and you still wan more ?!?! there is many things i disagree with you during recess. you ask me to spare a thought for the 178 guys , but who would spare a thought for me ? i've already lessen down my time with her. she can hardly even leave her house nowadays. the only time i could really spend time with her is either on phone, concerts,mt classes , and those days where she is allowed to eat lunch with me afterwards go home. and you can say tht i'm sticking to her ? FUCK YOU. we cnt even changed 1 word from few of 178 people , if we used a million word . you made me lose trust in you , but each time i lose alittle trust in you , i told myself " Dun be petty , she's my best friend. i must trust her" and i told you everything. and what did you do ? you expose it to 178 people. i bail on soonhock and his friends to play ball with you yet you didn't felt a shit of happiness but while andy came you were like overjoyed la ? Wht is this ? you dun even feel sorry tht now he doesn't even talk to me like how he used to before just because you told him everything. i trusted you and told you jiale's secret , i told to NOT TELL ANYONE YET, i trusted you. but wht did you do ? you expose la! You broke my trust towards you. i keep telling myself to trust u , cos we shouldn't have secrets but you expose again and again. you said she wasn't sincered in apologising but wht fucking else choices does she have to apologise. she's ban due to streaming year , she cnt go meet with him , she dun have his num , she cnt send fb message so you mean she shouldn't even ask her friends to hlp apologise ? dun cb can anot ? are u bored of the simple relationship we have so you're trying to ruin our relationship ? if yes , dun ruin mine can ? i like the simple way, than complicated.