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Counting down from now , 19 days♥

19 days till Total defence day :D , My BIRTHDAYY! :) & Alif's 7 month anniversary with his girlfriend :D hehehh! my birthday is a independant any filled with love day :D heheheh!

Was glad everything is over. its the same like how it used to be. but today say sabrina crying :( , didn't know why D: , heheh. shall ask her ltr :) hmm , well today was really slow~~ fianally understanded the maths question :) , i'm gonna burry myself with work now and thn :) , shall go gym or stadium to run more often already :( napfa coming , i dun feel like failing :( , hmm. hope jiale and accompany me to go :D . xD

I need to raise $50 quickly :D , $23 from sistehh! (I loan her $23) $10from chinyi ! (I lend her $10 for the spec thingy) now all i need is another , $17 , and the money tht i will need to exchange presents with syafiqah , riyadha , soonhock and calvin :).hehehh. after i've raised $50 , IM GONNA GET A NEW PHONE (Y) WAHAHAH.

I have an imaginary friend named , Hanwei number 2. she look exactly like me :) ,hazel nut coloured contact lenses , marsiling sec , n(a) , short hair , fat , weird eyes , fat lips , funney looking nose and short but CURVY eyelash :). i talks to her all the time when i reach home. cause she is the only person i see when i am at home. she is a really good listener , she listens to my whining all day. well , but she copy everything i do. -,-

i really miss the moments where my sis would nag at me nonstop once i reached home , my bro would disturb me alot , and i would wish i'm always alone at home. but i dun really wan tht to happen. "o" levels kills. :/

ellohh! Having a really sore throat today and a little feverish. well , i regret not going to school.

Cos if i did , cy wouldnt say gl words to me -,-! Fuck her. {This is the only place a can vent my anger , so stfu.}

Well , i was resting myself for the whole entire day. lying on my bed , not moving. taking my temperature. eating panadol.. yeaah. but i fianally move my lazy butt and got off my bed and went to cwp to but my assesment books. fewer is btr , just the sore throat for now. (Well , now tht my throat is so sore , i can scream without anyone knowing.) studying for now , i've missed out geog , science and chinese spelling. i btr bukle up if i dw to go 7 subject next year. hehehh. studying right away.~

Whts up with tht sarcastic remake. sometimes your sarcasm disgust me. you kept saying we have change , you change too alright. i really feel disgusted by myself while talking to you sometimes. but at times , you're so nice and friendly. its like you have "personality spilt" -,-! well , but i won't let anything ruin our friendship . our friendship between 6 sister remains alright. IDC. cos i would rather have a perfect friendship than having a troblesome one. if u talk to me nicely , i would reply back nicely , i won't guailan you if you dun guailan me. get it ? yea. tht's all i wan to say. so this is my only way to vent my anger. by blogging.~

Were you trying to say you dun trust me already ? if you are, you've succeed.

Well , ain't much in a good mood today. :/

today was running really fast. nothing much really happened. Well , today was kinda sad day for me. :( dun wish to talk about it.

"As the night came , each and every happiness ran away magically like in fairytales."

Well , i know u trust 178 people more than us , your best friends . but there isn't a need to spell it out for me. knowing it is bad enough , lying to myself each and everytime tht we'll still be your number 1 as always has always been my perfect plan. but you had to ruin my plan by telling me the ugly facts.we'll this is really depressing.we knew you longer but you trust them more. well i fianally understand "it isn't who knows who longer, but who understands who better." so this can be really depressing. i've always been telling my friends this but now i need to tell myself this. so i didn't understand you btr. i fail as your sister/friend/classmate. what tht is more depressing is tht you said we changed. but i dun agree with tht fact of yours. its not tht we change , its you tht have changed. well , even if you said she changed in to a more gl person , and i couldn't see it in my shoes but if i looked at his point of view i would see her "gl-ness" thn why izzit tht you wan me to see the bad side of her when we're all friends ? she have not changed. its wht you people think she changed when you just knew her. though you knew her longer than me but they changed you. they brainwashed you , they make you think tht she's gl. well , SHENOT. you said i'm sticking to her more often now and thn. but i felt tht i'm more apart from her already. i cnt talk to her in class. i could talk to you. i went to recess always with you , and not with her anymore. i go c.o with you. more seldom with her already. i couldn't even talk to her now in c.o already.i go 178 with you most of the time too. the only time i could spend the most time with her is during mt classes , going home after 178-ing and special cases like the mco concert. how can you god dam say tht i'm sticking with her more. most of my time is spend on you. i even spend more time on you , than sleeping , or with my family , and you still wan more ?!?! there is many things i disagree with you during recess. you ask me to spare a thought for the 178 guys , but who would spare a thought for me ? i've already lessen down my time with her. she can hardly even leave her house nowadays. the only time i could really spend time with her is either on phone, concerts,mt classes , and those days where she is allowed to eat lunch with me afterwards go home. and you can say tht i'm sticking to her ? FUCK YOU. we cnt even changed 1 word from few of 178 people , if we used a million word . you made me lose trust in you , but each time i lose alittle trust in you , i told myself " Dun be petty , she's my best friend. i must trust her" and i told you everything. and what did you do ? you expose it to 178 people. i bail on soonhock and his friends to play ball with you yet you didn't felt a shit of happiness but while andy came you were like overjoyed la ? Wht is this ? you dun even feel sorry tht now he doesn't even talk to me like how he used to before just because you told him everything. i trusted you and told you jiale's secret , i told to NOT TELL ANYONE YET, i trusted you. but wht did you do ? you expose la! You broke my trust towards you. i keep telling myself to trust u , cos we shouldn't have secrets but you expose again and again. you said she wasn't sincered in apologising but wht fucking else choices does she have to apologise. she's ban due to streaming year , she cnt go meet with him , she dun have his num , she cnt send fb message so you mean she shouldn't even ask her friends to hlp apologise ? dun cb can anot ? are u bored of the simple relationship we have so you're trying to ruin our relationship ? if yes , dun ruin mine can ? i like the simple way, than complicated.

Gaaah~

Irritated now. went to marsiling cc this morning with cy , xiao lan , engsin they all. watched them train but woodlands sec was there , and they had a friendly match. yeaa. was funn but we changed destination to blk 800+ de bball court , after awhile. yeaa , hahah , when we went there its like one whole gang going there and thn the people there say "Waah , bring gang ah you ?!?" Hahah , laugh die me , me and cy didn't play bball , we went to the playground and play . heheh~ we screamed out loud. it has been long since i ever screamed . i wanna scream uh . i wanna scream till i have no voice. i wan to get ill and rest at home. LOLL. after awhile i went to sports hall with cy but she left as soon as soonhock and justyne arrived. ermm , yeaa , felt a little awkward so i went off to find cy since she's all alone at 178 :D , i playyed awhile and was really happy :D , and soon andy cameee :D , heheh. thn we 3 shared "mai ya tang" . heheh. we 3 chattted alot. and soon many morepeople came. and yeaa , soon peizhen , soonhock and justyne came and find us. :D , many words slipped out of my mouthh. :( really sorrey to cy. hmm , well. nothing else to say :D.

"Yeaa , i'm really happy you both are tgt :D , but i dw to know how happy you are when u both are doing some things tgt. yeaa. i wish you both would really last longgg. :) its alright if you didn't update me of what you both had done. yea. and if you wanna talk to her , its okay if you said you're busy , you no need to offline and leave me in tht conversation without saying goodbye.

"iwanttoscreamtillmythroatbleed"

friday:)

Well , nothing much to elaborate . basically , went to mt enrichment after school ends, thn went for c.o , practiced myself. and went to 178 withh 4.55 with jiale and cy :) happy tht its fianally friday. 2 days of rest (Y) i made my first dinner todayy! :) , rice/porridge , egg and baked beans :D , well , the egg was a huge sucess. the rice suckks , and the baked beans is not tht nice.. , hahah~ i love cooking but i hate it tht i suckks so muchh. :( LOLL. well nothing else to elaborate.

Sometimes i hide the word because i dunwan people to know and i wan to express my feelings out , even if you saw the words i hid , please pretend you dun know anything. cause this is the only place where i can say wht i want to say without letting anyone know about it.. yeaa , well. i seriously dw anyone to know . so "shhhh" to wht u saw , or forget about it. thankkks so much.

ROARRRR~

changed blogskins :) , heheh , kinda ugly , maybe ask some friends to fix for me xD

anw , todayyyyy~

Hmm , nothing much to elaborate , but i did a orange bear swimming with a fish and a earth worm in a pond with mud , stones , and coconut tree at the side , during chinese enrichment :D! HAHAH. i love my art piece xD . hoho , was actually quite depress when i went home after going 178 with jiale and cy , but some one made me happy :) hahah~ :D

"You made me happy even when u have a girlfriend, you surely must have super powers :)"♥

You made sure i share my problems with you , you make sure i am happy. you made sure you were the one tht cheered me up. you make me wanna hug you like how i hug my toby at night. I really like you too! before and after. :) , but neverless , you and your girlfriend must last long too :) , your smiles make me smile , so as long as you are happy i'm happy tooo :)

I wish your birthday would come really soon so tht you could be really happy , and i would be too right ? cause your smiles are so cute tht i would even chuckle too upon seeing it :D